October 7, 2019
Ann: Hi Robin, I have felt you around me today. Is that correct and did you have something you wanted to say”.
Robin: Yes. I have much appreciated what you put up on your blog of our initial conversation, particularly the photo of myself with Koko. That was one of the highlights of my life. The communication with animals is sacrosanct, closest really to the connection with God because it is of the highest caliber and frequency. Pity those who cannot hear their messages for they are indeed lost. My little dogs never let me get away with anything, couldn’t bullshit them, razzle dazzle them or make them turn their backs on me though there was more than one occasion when they really should have run for cover. I know they was scared when I was swinging out of control, they cowered, they hid, but still they stayed. They see, these animals. They see to the core of our souls. You cannot bullshit a dog. I loved being with Koko because we liked to laugh, we made each other laugh and laughter is the purest form of love. Who can stay mad at someone who makes them laugh? I ice-skated over many a hellish situation with that gift. Laughter connects us all. As you look around you in this crazy time, look for the one that can make you laugh, for that is the one who can see the furthest, see the clarity behind the smokescreen of words lies half-truths and deceptions.
A: I gather that depression is not unusual for comedians.
R: Yes, and that’s pretty much the reason. We see. We see behind and what we see is not always comforting. In fact it can be downright terrifying and one little comic poking fun as the big bear of almighty fear and darkness is enough to send anyone into a fit depression.
A: And now?
R: I see the terror and the darkness but, people, you have now idea how glorious it is over here
A: OK, for some reason here I am watching “What Dreams May Come.” Did you send it my way?
R: Yes. It’s pretty spot on, and I needed you to see it so I could talk to you in that language. I felt the transportation when we were filming it, the unreality of my body, an unbearable lightness of being, if you will alternating with hellish depression. The former is what you feel in some part when you have been channeling deeply, connecting at a soul level with those of us who have passed and hold the light. Finish it and then we’ll talk.
A: OK. Here are some of the lines that I was moved to write down.
“Thought is real, physical is the illusion.”
“Where is god? He’s up there somewhere, shouting down that he loves us, wondering why we can’t hear him.”
And from what you said in interviews about this movie:
"I believe that you have samples here on earth of heaven."
"If you really approach this stuff, you'll come to a point where it's almost like a breakdown. You hit this place where, on the other side of it, lies deep, deep, deep, over-the edge depression.”
“That fear that you'll recognize, how insecure are we? How desperately insecure that made us do this for a living?”
October 8, 2019
Ann: OK, just for the record, I would never have watched this movie without you and Anita pushing.
Robin: Yeah, I felt that way too, pretty much belly- crawling through the whole shoot. But it’s real. It’s what under all those ego shields we build up and hoping in vain that they will save us from the truth. Who was it that said only the truth now will do? Well this is the truth.
A: A movie?
R: Yeah, well a lot of it, not the hell part due to suicide (I should know) but the creation of you own world after you die, what you need is what you get over here. Notice I didn’t say up here because that implies a down. Everything is a process, we just keep coming, refinancing what we have until we can see with the clear eyed smile that you see on the faces of angels. Go ahead, finish it.
A: OK, guess I’m in too deep now to quit. This is a surreal experience.
R: See? You’re already into the spirit of the thing.
From the movie:
“The old roles, who’s the teacher, who’s the father, gets in the way of who we really are to each other.”
“What’s true in our minds is true, whether some people know it or not.’”
“Being strong not giving up was just his place to hide.”
“Good people end up in hell because they can’t forgive themselves.”
A: What are you trying to tell me, Robin?
R: That you must forgive yourself for every little and enormous wrong you have done and then forgive everyone else. That is the only path to happiness, that is the only path to glory. We do create our own realities but the bone we are given is a bright light that beckons us home. We hurt as much as we need to before we come home, before we turn our faces from thinking that we are unworthy, until we realize that the word has no meaning. God loves his creation unconditionally and unless you can do so also you will always be in purgatory and dark forces can emerge from the sounds to weasel in through some crack in the armour you never needed. Oh how I wish I could see my children, Marsha, to tell them that they were all I ever wanted. I put on the brittle armour with the cracks - there are always cracks when there is armour - and let them down in my love. But I am whole now, I am here now and I am going to be here for those of you, for my family and others who want to see the truth. We can decide our own fates; when we love, when we surrender, we live, that is the one and final truth.
Thank you Ann for this microphone. I have been torn at the seams with all that I have to give to all of you and now I can breathe again.